Life in the Eyes of John

A blog on life, love, people, cars, and everything I can think about...

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

Working Late

10 p.m., and I'm still at work. I've just finished a rather crucial program needed to migrate files from our R/3 4.0B server to the newer R/3 4.7 server. Heck... I've been at work for eleven hours now (I came in at 11 a.m.)!

Well... time to go home. Tomorrow's going to be another busy day.

To everyone and anyone, Merry Christmas!!! (Better late than never, right?)

Friday, December 17, 2004

A New Hope

After attending our company's annual report, I felt that I need a change of heart. You see... like the rest of us, I always look forward to a fatter paycheck (and so do you... admit it!). It's the thought of "do this, do that," and then take what is due.

What I've been failing to see is how I have to be more. Sure, I may have a fatter payslip, but does that make me more than what I am? Did I improve? Did I learn more? Do I know more than an hour ago?

I've been wanting to find comfort sooner than later. Who doesn't? I guess everyone has a dream of settling down in a dream space with nothing to worry about. I guess people want to take it easy sooner or later. It's the wish of striking gold faster, right?

But what if there was more to than living the easy life? Go ahead and be fat with money, but will that make you more than what you are?

There is hope. God gave each and every one of us talents -- talents that, with the right amount of blood, sweat and tears, will grow to something that will be of use to the entire human race. Okay... so maybe we're looking into the stars... but remember, in order to reach a destination, one must first take a step.

I have to admit that I've been searching, longing for a fatter payslip. Sometimes, it even comes to points where I slow down at work because of the thought of "I want to be payed more."

What I failed to notice is that my personal growth slowed down. The geekiness somewhat died whenever I dream of larger rewards. Perhaps it's time to stop looking at my paycheck, and do what I should -- to grow.

Koree was right. It's not about the payslips; it's about your output to society that truly matters. When your mind has opened to that, you won't feel your rather mediocre payslips anymore. You will only want to be more, to be above everyone else.

And when that happens, you'll just think that your growing paycheck is a mere side effect. Isn't that a happy thought?

So for now, I just have to keep studying. Hopefully, by next year, I would learn the depths of ABAP and Java. Certification follows afterwards.

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

The Number One Rule If You Feel Like Shit

Go home.

Friday, December 10, 2004

Everyone Else Has Had More Sex Than Me

This is a simply hilarious cartoon! While reading the lyrics, go to any of these websites to see the cartoon (don't worry about adult ratings; even kids can watch it... just don't let them hear what they're singing...):

http://daemlich.net/2736
http://www.ebaumsworld.com/moresexthanme.html

Everyone else has had more sex than me.
Everyone else has had more sex than me.


Everyone else has had more sex than me.
Does anyone else get that feeling?
Teenagers naked,
Couple and threes
Grandparents swing from the ceiling.


Everyone else has had more sex than me.
Everyone else has had more sex than me.


Corporate chambers and office amore.
Shenanigans outdoor and in.
Resist and then later your find out there's more
Regret in not doing the sin.


Our lives have to die
Of that there's no help
My favourite way to end them
Is the orb-weaver spider's whose pedipalp
Enters the female pudendum.


Then dies on the spot
His corpse there still stuck,
Left for his rivals to curse at.


He would rather die than not get to fuck
Personally I reckon it's worth it.


Everyone else has had more sex than me.
Does everybody else get that feeling?
Everyone else has had more sex than me.
Does everybody else get that feeling?

Monday, December 06, 2004

Treacherous Roads

Last Saturday, we buried our lolo Jose. After a mass at Christ the King church in Project 7, we went on a convoy with the rest of my clan at the father side.

We had two cars -- the green Lancer '89 and the white Lancer '99. At first, dad asked me if we could leave the green one behind, but since my kuya and I had personal trips planned ahead, we brought both of them.

We then became the tail of a convoy of around fifteen cars. In front of me were a red Revo and a green Civic '03. We had traffic escorts (I thought they were illegal already... not sure... maybe in another part of the country...), and pretty slow ones as well. It made me want to wish that, in case I get escort service on my death, no car may travel less than sixty km/h.

Later on, we reached Quezon Circle. The escort service stopped traffic so that the convoy chain wouldn't be broken. Dad was close behind, and I was close behind the green Civic.

For some damned reason, a passenger jeepney wanted to cut the chain. In a sign of protest, I denied him entry by staying close to the Civic in front of me. I was in first gear, travelling no more than 20 km/h.

Then everyone stopped.

As a reflex, I hit the brakes -- mashing them to perhaps expect a screech. It was a good 3 meters away from the Civic when I stomped the brakes.

No screech. The car was sliding. Bad -- that means no rubber-to-tarmac traction. Initial mental voice-out was, "Shi-eeeeeeee-t!"

But I stopped so close. In fact, so close that I kissed the bumper of the Civic. Milliseconds later, I thought I was lucky.

Crash.

I wasn't. Dad also passed the same fucking jeep that wanted to cut us, and also had no traction. We share the same, quick reflex rate, dad and I, but nothing stopped that bone-crunching sound.

A quick look at the rear view mirror revealed to me the folded hood of the white Lancer. "Shit!", I shouted in frustration. Who wouldn't? I moved the car forward, and saw a cracked and crumpled bumper on the white car as well. Great. "Shit!", I continued.

The crash also caused my car to kiss the Civic more intimately. I kissed it too hard, the clippings of the Civic's bumper came off, but no heavier damage than wrinkled paint. All the repairing required was to return the bumper to its clips.

My car got sandwiched, in effect. My front bumper was pushed back by an inch, and my rear, well, is shit. The lower part of the rear end was crumpled badly. Aside from the bumper, parts of the underchassis also got pushed in. In fact, it got pushed in an inch -- which is enough to allow rain water to seep through and into the trunk (which, if opened, can be barely closed if one does not push in the trunk lid).

And the white car? Aside from the aforementioned damage, the A/C condenser and auxilliary fan were affected. My dad didn't have second thoughts and broke from the convoy to bring the car to the casa for repairs.

So who's fault is it? I got my share, as well as dad. Others include an asshole driving that passenger jeep for not respecting the convoy, and some asshole far ahead who caused the whole convoy to come to a complete stop.

Personally, I want to point a finger upwards with a clenched fist to all those who made the road. Dad said it may have been an oily road caused by a drainage overflow that had residue from restaurants. Methinks it's water on a pebbly-structured road surface, which translates to less rubber-to-tarmac surface area, which translates to reduced braking efficiency.

To prove my point, I did some testing yesterday with the green '89 Lancer. Control variables were speeds of up to 50 km/h, a wet road, and a simulated sudden stop. On samples at a street in Sampaloc and Connecticut Drive in Greenhills, the car reduced its speed drastically without tire lock. A sample on a concrete road in Victoria Avenue (near St. Luke's Hospital) gave me wheel lock, but with a screech (means I got rubber-to-cement traction).

A sample of the stretch of E. Rodriguez Sr. Ave. between Banawe and G. Araneta Ave., which featured a pebbly concrete road similar to the one at the crash site, gave me wheel lock and continuous sliding. There was barely any grip at all.

And now, I hereby cry to the government to give us better roads. I demand to see the taxes we pay during our annual LTO registration on the road. I demand that safer roads be made for all the motorists of the country to prevent accidents such as what had occurred (which will roughly cost us nearly a six-digit figure).

Until then, I will never have faith in our government.

And so I quote from my thoughts last night, driving home with kuya and mom:

"I love the Philippines, but how can I truly love my country if it doesn't love me in return?"

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

Low Days

I can't study. I should be doing some work now. I'm in the office. Project is still pending for approval, no short tasks to accomplish -- just plain boring. I realized that I need some sort of computer-related task (programming, stuff like that) to get myself motivated with my studies again.

Maybe it's just one of those low days. You know... days when all you want to do is laze around. It happens to everyone, I guess. It's just some biorhythmic cycle, dictating how much we can do everyday.

Perhaps it's psychological. Early this morning, dad informed me that Lolo Jo has passed away. Dad didn't seem affected, but maybe he is. It's his dad. But Lolo Jo and I aren't close, but still is a memory. I remembered his face hours ago. No big emotions here. In fact, I feel kind of happy he passed away, since he's been in a coma for around 2 weeks. May he rest in peace.

I can't remember our house traditions when these things happen, but I'm sure that me and my fellow siblings will be discouraged from having fun. If I can recall correctly, the time my lolo from mom's side (may he rest in peace, too) passed away, I don't recall going out for a week.

Perhaps this is the source of my depression. You see... two days from now, Kat and I will be two years into the relationship. It's plain reflex to come up with a celebration (not all relationships go this far, and I'm certain this will go further), which will be cut short or delayed due to current circumstances.

Hmm... guess I hit the jackpot. Oh well... time to find my motivation again...