Consider Me Lucky

Current dilemma: I'm not happy with work right now. I'm starting to see work as something that fails to fulfill me. Maybe it's the environment here, or perhaps a number of interests interfering.

Maybe being a programmer/analyst isn't exactly my dream job. Sure, I can be good at it, but not to the extent of being competitive. For instance, one of my officemates can learn to use a language even without knowing its basics. Me, I need to know the basics. The basics learning time is so long, that officemate of mine can leave me in the dust.

Perhaps it's the ten-month job itch, or even the trauma of one failed project after another. There are so many factors at play here, but all I can say is that I'm growing at a snail's pace.

I may consider myself lucky, though. We're flexi-time here; log in and out whenever you want, as long as you get the job done. I've got a library to access learning materials on SAP and other languages here as well. I also have a somewhat competitive salary, close to call center agents, but still operate regularly from 8:30am to 6:00pm.

Perhaps I need to shed light over the dark side of me...